I feel like I am pushing a car with no tires up a hill...

Help.

Seriously... Help is what I need.  

But NOT necessarily from you, the person reading this.  

Or from the handful of friends that I got in my Divorce.  

(Mostly because they will not read my Blog, probably ever, they get enough of the analog me to ever entertain the digital version.)

You see.  

I am sort of an extremist. 

An "All or Nothing" personality type...
When I set my mind to things, I go all out and overachieve.

But when I'm not in full commitment mode...

It's like dragging an 80lbs bag of sand through waist high mud.

***Remind me sometime I will tell you about the Radio Contest my wife entered me into that lead to me losing almost 210lbs in less than a year.  That was in 2011.  It's a long story.  So sorry I'm not getting into it tonight. *** However, less than a year and half later me and that same wife separated and I began to "Stress Eat" for lack of a better term and I put almost half of it back on... Like I said it's a long story.***

Anyway, I have truly tried to apply myself to getting healthy this month... And I have.
I was able to stop drinking PEPSI.
(for the 1,258th time in my life)

As well as get myself thinking about what I was buying, preparing and putting in my body.

I have not only stopped slowly gaining weight but I have lost weight. I am sleeping better and I feel better throughout the day.

But the thought of a diet overwhelms me. The planning and preparing. The Do's and Don'ts...

There are so many other things on my mind. I just avoid eating rather than deal with it.  Which leads to going too long without food which is not only bad for your metabolism but will cause you to make bad choices with what and where you eat...

Man, I sound whiny... You wanna know why?  because it's 8pm and I haven't eaten a thing since I had a salad at "Wendy's" today for lunch.  I'm getting that slight hunger headache and everything is annoying me.

What do you do when you don't want to do what you need to do and not doing it isn't really an option but you continue to avoid doing everything that needs to be done?  

Ugh...

Help.